all of my sins..

When I'm outside, at the shopping mall, or just at a place where there are a lot of people.. I keep on sensing those who are... well... like.. uhh... who I used to be.. (or maybe still am?).. (shyet)

I can't help feeling attracted to them. Especially those who act tough and dressed like one. Oo la la~ HAHAH.

I remember in Cameron, there was this one girl. Oh gosh, I feel like grabbing her and make out in the toilet or sth.. Ey, rase macam jd psycho sex addict la plak. AHAHAHAH. Somehow we stared at each other though.. I guess she sensed me too.. but I didn't "go for it" cuz I was walking with my friends.. so... it was a short stare (which felt like eternity lol)..

*sighs*

None of my friends knew I was like that... Sometimes I do feel like telling them but, the words just won't come out. I feel so hypocrite..

This feeling.. a part of me just want to do whatever I want to do.. but another part of me holds me back..

I wish I could just turn it off. The attraction. Whew. It's killing me.